"Time heals all things."
We have all heard the saying. I am sure that at some point in time, I have said this to someone that was hurting. Tonight, I stopped and asked myself if this statement is really true. I have to be honest and say NO. After a pretty rough week, I finally realized my problem. I am in my annual depression. My father died around this time 18 years ago. Seriously, 18 years has passed and I find myself sobbing as if I were 7 again. Does it ever get easier? I have come along way since that time but healing is a process. It is not instant and I am not sure that the process is ever complete. I have a wonderful Dad, who has been there for everything along the way and I am grateful for all that he has done and continues to do. I just can't help but to feel an empty spot in my heart this time of year. I count heavily on God's grace to pull me through!
I miss you and love you, dad!
2 comments:
Although I know you're right - it stinks to know that it doesn't! I love you and think that you've done a wonderful job adjusting to the storm that you've endured. Your dad would be extremely proud of the woman you've turned out to be!
No, I don't think things like this get easier. Maybe more time means more practice or awareness of what you'll experience.
Also, Britt, you are doing student teaching now. That is SO STRESSFUL. In many ways I thought it was more stressful than my first year of teaching. I think that the mental exhaustion you get from doing what you're doing and the physical exhaustion of adding more work to do might be just taking a toll on your emotions. I have found that external things like stress and lack of control of my day trigger depression and make depression "stickier"... harder to shake.
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