Warning...Sad, Emotional Post Ahead - Read with Caution

15 days. Just over 2 weeks ago my family and I had to say a temporary good-bye to a wonderful woman. Already 15 days have passed. The world continues to spin. Life goes on. Things return to "normal". And that, makes me so angry. I know deep in my heart, that my Grandma would want those things to occur. She would want us to laugh and smile. I do that for a period of time and then I just feel like exploding. My heart hurts so bad and I feel a literal empty hole inside. While I know this good-bye is only temporary, it feels so final at the moment. I want to see her face. I want to hear her voice. I want to feel her hug.

I know - big pity party! I warned that it would be a sad, emotional post.

Tomorrow is Easter Sunday. Our first holiday without that bright, shining smile. It will be a rough day. My mind keeps going back to a song that was played during my Grandma's funeral - "Temporary Home" by Carrie Underwood. Here are the lyrics...

Old man, hospital bed
The room is filled with people he loves
And he whispers don't cry for me
I'll see you all someday
He looks up and says "I can see God's face."

"This is my temporary Home
It's not where I belong
Windows and rooms that I'm passin' through
This was just a stop,on the way to where I'm going
I'm not afraid because I know this was
My temporary home."

In the midst of my sadness, I am so thankful that this is our temporary home and that I will get to see my grandma someday. I will get to feel her hug and see her sweet smiling face. I am also so thankful that I got to have a Grandma that was so strong in her faith, that she shared that faith with all of us, and that she was EXCITED to see Jesus. She used that phrase before she went in for surgery exactly one month ago. She said that if she didn't make it through, she was EXCITED! How impressive! What a wonderful lady! How lucky I am that she was in my life!